“Art in the Garden” has been cancelled, there is no turning back, like before it means to be be flexible and adapt, accepting that life rarely works out as planned, what unfolds instead makes somehow sense. I am not in control, even if I kid myself that I am…enough of philosophical thoughts on “how to cope with disappointment”. I have been carving along on “stone 1”, nearing completion, many weeks ago I mentioned the bliss of starting to see forms emerge, a similar satisfaction is the tweaking of forms at the end, bringing out the best in forms and their connection between each other, reflecting constantly the flow inside the mass and adjusting the outer visible form to internal form movement. As you can see on the image below I started to sand down some of the form, discovering bright, bright orange veins running through the stone. It is hard to keep positive, encouraging myself that it is worth spending hours in dust, noise and isolation for the sake of form…looking at the image I am proud of what has happened, not as planned but hey with that I am back to where I started…I am not in control.
Returning to using hand tools, the Bouchard hammer being my most trusty companion of them all, I am able to see forms and the movement of form in precision. I immediately connect with the stone in a different way and letting go off having to speed ahead to get this carving completed in the next four weeks…I do what I can!
- stone 1, 05.06.2013
Aware of my limited experience working with stone on a larger scale I lost heart for a few days, I literally did. The constant thinking about the carving, the forms, the drive to get to the workshop…where did it all go? It gave way to the sinking feeling that I can’t do this without help of lifting equipment on a very practical level as on another level strangely detached from the forms that have not got the perfection I am used to reach with hand tools…I am in a new land, walking in the dark. I am learning to ask for help, learning to not give up. Thank you Paul Grellier (a fellow sculptor who is exhibiting at “Art in the Garden” 2013) for arranging a meeting with Caroline in the Rococo Garden, being there is inspiring, I love this place, despite not carving in the garden this year I have grown a strong connection with the garden and the people who care for it over the last two years…as we leave I am starting to get excited about “Art in the Garden” and the weeks leading up to it. Away from the sculptures I am working on right now, we had Open Studios in Stroud, two weekends full of interesting conversations, this year I sold two carvings and had positiv feedback about my work generally, I am chuffed! I installed the pieces last week, in places where they are appreciated and observed through the seasons over years to come. I often wonder, why I am doing what I do…. one reason is to give enjoyment to others, delivering my work personally made me realise that I am able to do that.
Cylindricus 2 installed in it’s new home, 25.05.2013
I had a bit of time last week to work the best I can on “Stone 1”, carved by hand as well as using the grinder gently to move towards perfection within the existing forms….
Stone 1, 25.05.2013